Friday, December 25, 2015

Moroni 7:45

45 And acharity suffereth long, and is bkind, and cenvieth not, and is not puffed up, seeketh not her own, is not easily dprovoked, thinketh no evil, and rejoiceth not in iniquity but rejoiceth in the truth, beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

I found myself on my knees tonight praying good and long for a change of heart.  Praying not to have harsh feelings towards another, and after praying I thought that I needed to ponderize again.  I immediately thought of Moroni 7: 45.  I hope it does the trick.  Carrying around hard feelings towards others makes it hard for the spirit to work in our lives.  It puts us on the path away from the Lord.  It can make us a little more angry and easily provoked as the scripture says.  It can desensitize us towards spiritual things.  

Sometimes a change of the heart is immediate sometimes it is slow in coming and is a gradual change over time.  However my change comes I do at least have faith and hope that it will.  I need this thing.


Friday, November 20, 2015

Ponderizing

My family said they wanted to make a blog where we could share our ponderizing experiences, since no one was posting on it except me, I decided to start sharing my experiences on my own blog...

This week I have been ponderizing the story of the good samaritan.  It is in Luke 10:30-37.  I also looked up an ensign article from some years back that explains all the symbolism in that story.  Wow, is there a lot of symbolism in that story!!  And it's all very beautiful!  It's like the whole story of man in just 7 verses of scripture.

I had an interesting experience with Caleb this week.  He struggles with school and specifically with reading.  Yesterday his book was a bit of step up from what he normally does.  He is ready to move on to the next level of reading.  When we were about half way through the book he turned the page and there were a lot more words on that page then he has ever read on any one page.  It kind of blew his mind and over whelmed him so much that he couldn't really see how he would be able to accomplish reading that whole page.  When Caleb gets overwhelmed it looks a lot like a 2 year old fit.  That is something we are working on, but through the course of trying to get him to see that he could read that page, there were no new things on there for him, they were all things that he would be able to figure out.

At one point he said "The only way to get me to stop crying is to do x, y, and z"  at that moment I had a big realization.  I said "Caleb, my goal is not to get you to stop crying"  and when I said that I realized what my goal as a mother should be.  I continued "My goal is to teach you that you can do this hard thing and help you learn to over come things that seem like they are too big and too hard.  My goal is to help you see that even though there is something before you that seems insurmountable, you can break it down into pieces and when you do that you will be able to accomplish this big thing one tiny piece at a time."  I continued to try and build up his confidence for awhile and he stopped the fit and started to read.

Things like this are not the norm, but they are becoming more and more common as I keep the scriptures constantly presently in my mind, and focus on the Savior more every day.

 Keep ponderizing!!

Friday, October 9, 2015

The Connection or Am I The Only One Seeing This?

I was horrified, awestruck, dumbfounded.  I was 20 years old and watching on T.V. as the unthinkable began to unfold for the families of the students at a high school in Colorado.  A gunman had entered the high school and opened fire!  This is the first I remember this ever happening, maybe it was dramatized by the news, maybe I have forgotten other incidents over the years, for whatever reason this one stuck with me.  The name Columbine will always mean "school shooting" to me.  It will always bring to my remembrance a feeling of disgust and of sadness.  The original sadness for the students involved and the suffering families, and now the sadness of a nation under attack.

Maybe not just a nation for such things are not limited to America.  The most innocent in any part of the world- the children are being attacked at a place of vulnerability.  Education is being attacked and the desire to attend school to better your life, whether its primary school, or secondary, you are no longer safe to do so.  This would imply that you once were safe to do so, this is not the case for everyone and it is not as much the case as I once thought. After a quick internet search I landed on this page:   A History of School Shootings in America.  I will be the first person to be critical of wikipedia, and the validity of its information, so please feel free to correct any of the shootings posted in the link above.  This post's focus is more on what is happening to bring about so many shootings since Columbine.

So what is happening?  Lets take a look...

I did a search on You Tube for children's cartoons.  I clicked on the first one that came up.  It is a 54 minute compilation of Disney cartoons.  I only watched the first 5 mintues and I had what I needed to prove my point.  Here is a link to chip n' dale on You Tube.  Let's look at what is taught in the short 5 minute cartoon of Donald Duck and Chip n' Dale.  The first thing I noticed was entitlement.  Donald Duck steals a bundle of nuts from the chipmunks and then is immediately angry when they take them back.  He is entitled to those nuts!!  He rightfully stole them!!  Then Chip n' Dale teach the same concept of entitlement when Santa shows up and offers a large nut to one and a small nut to the other, a fight promptly ensues between the 2 of them over the bigger gift.  They both feel entitled to something that was suppose to be a gift, suppose to make them happy on Christmas.  Christmas, a day of love, a day to celebrate our Lord and Savior, and they spend it bickering over a present from Santa.  Then as if entitlement weren't enough, they make the fight between the 2 chipmunks and Donald Duck bigger and better, with a full on war scene!  This scene is complete with barricades, rapid gun fire, canon fire, and an ambulance.

So here in the first 5 minutes of this cartoon children are being taught entitlement, violence in order to get back what you stole, and that war and/or fighting is ok, even funny.  Do you see any connection between this and the violence we see in our culture today?

Chip n' Dale is an old cartoon.  The cartoons that are being created today are even worse.  They teach children that they should whine about things like school, and undermine authority figures.  The very places children should turn when they need help, they are being taught not to trust.  Do you see any connections between this and things like teenagers being emotionally unstable?  Parents and teachers are not portrayed as people that can be trusted.  So who do children have to rely on?  When a child feels like they have no one, that is recipe for problems down the road, big problems.  Problems that can take a life time to over come.